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I never quite know what will come out on the page when I first sit down to type. It leads me to a fun question of whether or not this becomes a channeled blog written by my higher self that the conscious version of myself then goes back to tidy up and make clearer, or if the whole creative process is somehow more of an unconscious undertaking that seems to have a mind all its own.
The Amie that goes around thinking about next moves and what the “right thing” to do next is, thinks all the time about writing about actionable steps for people that read these random glimpses into my soul. Yet somehow whenever I sit down with the intention to write about “One New Thing a Week” or “Synchronicities in Our Daily Life”, I end up sitting down and typing things like this. Wonderings and confessions of the way my brain works or mini synopsis’ of my life as I begin to live it from a more spiritually mindful place.
I also spend a lot of time thinking about how to actually progress a new business and what exactly I need to do as an action step to fix the website so I am ready to launch, or what to charge for which services I feel comfortable enough to offer so I feel like I am giving clients the experience that they deserve at a rate we can both feel is fair. Yet, when I spend my morning going about my routines and finally sit down to work on one of those steps, I end up sitting down and writing these vulnerable outpourings that don’t seem to make sense to me as I begin them, but tend to unfold themselves into exactly the thing that I need to make sense of myself. They are like little “aha moments” for me that I end up wanting to share with you.
I have been finding a lot of feathers just lying around everywhere I go lately, and if Google searches are to be believed (which I am inclined to), they are symbols of angels nearby helping you along. I love just the thought of that and have come to smile every time they pop into my awareness, which has been happening quite a lot. It is a lot more comforting to walk through life believing we are held, rooted for, and unconditionally loved no matter what. Even as I am surrounded by loving people in my world that show me a multitude of ways that a person can be shown love, it is still not uncommon to feel alone and misunderstood going through our daily lives for seasons or even just from time to time.
The shift that happens when we believe in things that we can’t see, whether it be angels, God, universal energy, spirit guides, our own higher consciousness, or all of the above is one of great comfort and relief. If you can even just imagine that there is a team somewhere out there constantly rooting for you, life can become so much easier to bear and dare I say, even magical.
Now I know I’ve lost a lot of pragmatic sorts at this point, but to think that we are in control and on our own to find our own answers to everything in our lives is probably a huge reason why there is an anxiety and depression epidemic in our world. There were many times over the years that I put some of my beliefs to the side and truly believed that I alone had to pull up my big girl pants and handle life. You know, that old adage, “if you want something done right, you have to do it yourself”. However, I can tell you that every single time I got caught up in that kind of thinking, I have either fallen off the path I was meant for or gotten so caught up in life the way I thought it was supposed to be that I would eventually end up depressed, lost, and in therapy.
In hindsight, I can see that these were all instances that were working “for me” and not “against me” (a favorite mantra you can feel free to incorporate with great success), but when you are walking through them it can feel overwhelming. Now I have true faith that in each of those moments I was not alone. Some of the more miraculous moments in my life have occurred when I had a looming sense that all was lost. Yet time after time I have had the exact right thing happen. The perfect person says the just right thing. The perfectly timed blessing comes through at the last minute. A unique opportunity presents itself as if from out of nowhere. No matter the case, there has always been something behind the scenes working on my behalf.
I would like to take credit and say I manifested them, or prayed for them, or even willed them into existence but I can only say that for some of the moments of serendipity that have occurred in my life. The only consistent thing that I can count on for sure is that I have always had an unwavering sense of hope and faith. That “Ted Lasso like” toxic optimism that even though things might be crappy in this very moment, that it could always be worse, but mostly that it will always get better. The sayings of “this too shall pass” and “the sun will come out tomorrow” are ways of life for my inner compass. Unsure if it was born into me, or passed down through my faith journey is a nature vs. nurture question that may never be answered for me. All I can say is that I have been BLESSED with an inner KNOWING that I am held and that I will always have what I need in this life.
That all being said, I will remind myself in this moment, that even though I had no idea that this would be what I would be writing about today, it must be the exact right thing to be typing. Whatever the reason is beyond me, but I will be grateful for the help from Team Amie! No matter if it was channeled, subconscious, or just plain unconscious creativity at work in my life yet again!